Diary 9: Blurred Lines

This Friday

Today I continue doing my proofreading and essay writing services for a client. I had been assigned 10,000 word to do which are divided in 4 different parts. This task was given to me 2 weeks ago. I unfortunately had not been able to accomplish this task and still doing them now because I had been preoccupied with a lot of things in the past couple of weeks. What is amusing to me is that I know I could've finished all these in three days maximum. But attacks of laziness and lethargy have been a frequent visitor in my motivation. The luxury of being idle and time-wasting in useless non-sense had also not proved any use. I had always put in my mind that I would stay calm in any situation and because I have been doing these in so long I have become stolid, one could say. It was not my intention. I wanted being calm to be a state of mind in which I could judge the situation rationally and make the right decisions. These days it just made me insensible, anxious. Its a paradox. Really. 

Some Expected Developments
I have postponed a lot of my projects long enough. I have wasted so much time. I wish there was a pill you could take to refill all our human needs back to 100%. Imagine the rise in our productivity level. We wouldn't have to worry so much about replenishing our hunger, thirst and sleep. The human civilization will advance at  a phenomenal rate. I don't like being tired. I used to like sleep but only because I would only be sleeping for a few hours. Nowadays, I find myself sleeping for a full 8 hours, in less exciting days it is so easy to make a full 12-hour clock on the bed. Even afternoons have become a less favorable habit. Anyhow, there's still a long way to go in order for me to complete my 6 goals (which I am now putting a deadline to be finished by the end of the year.) 

On top of that, I have come up with a couple of new ones that I think may be easier to do. And which could also potentially yield more results than my original ideas of establishing an online business. In the near future, I expect to have created my online platform that amass traffic which will allow me to earn revenue. At this point, I will be monetizing it.  I am not really sure how I could go on about it yet. My inspiration came from a friend of a friend that came at the right stage of my life. He is from a younger generation. At first I felt feelings of jealousy, but then I just got inspired. I maybe feeling this now as I watched this film called "The Social Network." Its the story of how Facebook came about. I'm not entirely sure how true the film to the actual events but definitely, it got me.

Blurred Lines
Its your favorite song by Robin Thicke and Pharell Williams. I'm so thankful I met you. To even spend even just a minute with you, it gives me back all the hope I once had. Its been quiet between us lately. Its not what we used to have. But I have no regrets. It happened because it was suppose to happen. I am keeping low, because in my head I think this is what you want and need. You're so near yet so far. This world will try to take everything from us, our principles, morals, our innocence. And in you I saw light. You always say I'm being dramatic. Maybe you're right. But I don't want to lose a good thing in life again. I've experienced it all before. I am so strong now that I could let go so easily. Maybe in a different time, on a different place, in another life, things would be different. All I know right now is I want to see you. Oh dear, I have to stop all this thinking. This is what a long day can do to you. You just start writing about things that don't make sense. Blurred lines indeed. 16/08/2013.