Diary 3: Keeping Up With Change

Not Feeling The Most Fearless

In the past few days I had to face some harsh truths, accept them without hesitation and quickly find a solution for all of them. They all came at once. Some of them were the best news I have ever received but the other ones were not so good. I never saw it coming and don't you always find it strange when nothing much is happening in your life at present and suddenly you're bombarded with these unexpected events? Threading bewildered, you then find yourself adapting to these changes with or without your awareness. It was an overwhelming experience. I came to  realize you can not fully plan anything ahead in time. Something, somewhere will always come up that could change your mind. Not feeling the most fearless right now though I know that strength that comes from within will keep me from surrender and defeat. Last weekend I spent time with my friends and when I got home I just warped myself into an empty space in my bedroom seeking for complete solitude. I was longing for the blessings of tranquility and being casted away to some parallel universe where I could be alone. I know I will get over this hurdle and go to the next one. 

Sometimes All You Need Is One

I never knew how you can completely surrender faith, hope and belief into another and distill so much a trust into something you can not see, taste or touch. Its remarkable really - you feel like you've achieved something that you're not quite yet prepared to have accomplished and all you just ever know is you suddenly know the person you want to be. The best thing in life is to know you could say I love you in any given time or place to someone who will do the same for you. Though the truth of the reality must remain. Our journey, our story, our adventures in life is something just for ourselves. It is shared with your friends, with family, with a loved one but only you have the power to pick yourself up and walk that path. So in times of hopelessness feeling gratitude for anyone who sacrifices their own time to give a helping hand would only get you further and that's what truly matters. I am thankful that this one person exist already in my life. 

Bringing It All Back Together
Balance. For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction. I had always found trouble understanding Newton's Third law of Motion. The 80/20 principle assert that it is possible to achieve more by doing less. So for instance if one must meet a deadline in 10days and he prepares for this by spreading the workload towards finishing it by 10% for each day; would this be better if that person did it all at once putting the 100% in one day? If this person finished it in one day that must mean he would acquire more time to focus on other things and time is the most valuable gift anyone can have. So this would conflict with Newton's law? Makes me think. The other day I spent the whole day advertising for a flatmate as there was a sudden change of plan in my moving out. Sent out mails, facebook posts, contacted people. I only got 2 replies. I definitely put more energy into advertising for a flatmate but my end product - which was bad news, was greater. Though luckily, a couple days ago I was contacted by a hoard of people interested in the flat. They all came at once. Like every other time.

Ace